17, almost 18 Weeks.

This is my bump. A bump that I already love so much I can not even begin to find the words. I sure was not expecting to feel this way so soon.

We worked really hard to get this bump. It took a long time, a lot of heartbreak and even more hope to get here. I am so grateful we found the courage to stick it out because I can not even imagine not knowing this bump.

Over the last couple of weeks I have started to feel our little person wiggle around and sometimes if I am really lucky I get a couple of kicks. One night I got three. Amazing. I can not wait to start feeling this kid move around all day and all night, yes I am sure I will regret saying that.

Next week is going to be a big milestone for us and the bump. We find out if Baby O is a boy or a girl. I can not wait. Mostly I think it is a girl growing in there but then other times I think we have a little boy. I really don't know and I really don't mind. But after all the waiting we have done to get here we decided not to wait for things we don't have to.

I never thought I would look back on our journey and say that I am thankful for the trials we went through to get here but I am. I am thankful because my relationship with my husband is better and stronger then I ever could have imagined. I will never question his strength and his ability to be my rock  at any time. We are more prepared for this life changing experience then I could have hoped. I am thankful but I can only say that now that I am on the other end. During I would have said something completely different and I think that is ok. I don't think there is a right or a wrong in emotions during such a trial.

Don't stop hoping, don't stop imagining and don't think it won't happen. Because it can, it does and it will.